6/10/03 In the midst of bombardment by systematic contradiction and insanity intent on annihilation They hope for Survival in dignity 6/12/03 touch beyond need floats out of time desire seems to awake the watcher hopes for heaven Still nothing happens 6/16/03 No moon arose to guide the weary yet stars shone beneath the clouds as echoes of thunderclaps slowly stopped 6/17/03 Waiting for tomorrow eyes closed hours of sleeplessness and worry desire gone away no secret thoughts only emptiness 6/18/03 Once an adversary my untamed angel is now changed wounds heal suppressed thoughts show truths Recklessly revealing desire 6/20/03 alone in girlhood the dancer sits in a corner class is out But No recollection echoes for her 6/23/03 shadows upon the grassy knoll unseen phantom beneath the trees monstrous things have passed no one dares to tell 6/24/03 my love knew hot beginnings and now coolness in its end each desire splintered as ceaseless changes tumble me 6/26/03 I've had weeks of thoughts too fast to grasp years when I couldn't find desire in love 6/27/03 You'll never touch heaven or ever get beyond the strife of life on planets It seems peace is elsewhere 6/30/03 Wet pavement Bright colors swirl Limousines prowl darkened alleys Stray cats slink by Crowds shuffle on blind to beauty 7/1/03 Rage lay within the socially acceptable mask Censured fury howled Perpetually Imprisoned Until years of pain brought the end 7/2/03 The crash shocks us awake nerves tingling We are safe and laugh Still nothing seems true Lights look like fire 7/10/03 This rock will endure for eons Damned to endless time with no memory unmeaning thoughts or fleshly desire 7/11/03 I believe in fairy tales Like the blind prophetess with dark eye-sockets creating rivulets of water spattering from roof rocks 7/14/03 Tragedy ensues when life is Without desire Wanting and need are lost Staring out to darkness Crying 7/15/03 Grandfather Eagle's lance found the shaggy buffalo Sing his hunter's chant solemn and ancient Share victory's dance as twilight dims Speak of ancient glory mark with song the journeys touch the Eagle's lance and laugh Sing of the flame again 7/17/03 Walkman on concentrating on a tiny television hazy in the light she taps into God in the grocery store 7/18/03 my my my she chortled haven't I tortured you love lost and found my desire 7/21/03 Sparks fly But With misunderstanding and differences digested needed conformity forces the required compromise why is Individuality wrong 7/22/03 Waking in the arbor among silver branches and dewy fronds Dawn's skies golden tangerine and crimson I am dancing fire 7/28/03 love is found by desire a beau art a delicious end 7/30/03 I was about to laugh at What happened to the neighbors my Feelings changed when I found out 8/4/03 When God attempted to instill love in Los Angeles flamingo mothers laughed neon stops belief 8/6/03 it seems so simple distant chaos shed blithely Silent fights engaged against his will as laboring groans are muted 8/7/03 My we become very creative in naughty moments of desire Everything anyone anticipated is found handsome dark blurring imperfections 8/8/03 Blessed voices welcome hundreds of the tired and weary Welcome that will last forever because it cannot know death 8/15/03 suppose you dared to stand For what we held true And it became a daily thing Alas Only suppose 8/18/03 You'll be out of sight Still in this time of drought I am patiently waiting seeing beyond hopes 8/19/03 Silent children of all ages Will tell one secret truth Of battles fought when love unlocks their memory 8/20/03 It seems safe and sane You'll never interfere Still we patiently wait For changes in your sight beyond hopes 8/21/03 Falling snow blows in rippling waves White velvet sparkling With shades of blue As a soft layer covers trees 8/22/03 Weathering the frigid winter Swathed and endlessly Bundled Everyone waiting Waiting For the Sun to finally turn times toasty 8/25/03 Neglect becomes a heavy shadow fading Former treasures of memory beyond reach Forgetting all that was meaning eludes pursuit 8/26/03 narrow ribbons tether the goddess moon pipes garland the soft air with caresses of desire wishes suspended between returning memories 8/27/03 He sleeps very soundly She hammers cautiously then harshly Counting blows Ending love 8/28/03 They are believers in glory planners of a harvest of shrouds plotters of genocide Nations rushing toward their death-- 8/29/03 creativity pervades the exuberant mood recognition of boundaries repelled revelation of enriched confidence my self nurtured I can I will 9/2/03 I don't like kung pao chicken or the smell of soy sauce eating Chinese with family members was love 9/3/03 no MSG else feuding will be long violence and sacrifices needed 9/4/03 by the hollow circle I found a path it led to you will your love be blessing or curse 9/8/03 Birds sang as the day dawned Fatherless children watched with sombre grey eyes in anonymous mourning haunted by Incomprehension 9/11/03 Insincere accolades are not listened to There is not time to be heedful of that Apathetic antithesis of his desire 9/12/03 Braving the Master's spell Searching in the jade light and dim shadows of the briny depths The lost is found 9/15/03 Pain is his unwelcome sanctuary Thief of the spirit But without that cruel companion victory will not be found 9/16/03 And All grew hotter As the day was longer Until a cool draft of air Blew like a delicious fan 9/19/03 paradise is found in plumes hot and delicious carnivores chortle quietly with desire 9/23/03 The frail one is laid out so gently Treasuring marks of aging etched on the pale face promises of youth 9/24/03 Lights out but Still awake his nerves tingling with personal strife The watcher waits patiently as nothing much happens 9/26/03 Still tingling from the crash And the changes that happened But We will keep our hopes safe and true 9/29/03 It seems safe to-night The watcher is awake and calm But seeing the changes Still wouldn't keep us from harm 9/30/03 she moans while still asleep He watches over her as she is surrounded from within by memories of wounds 10/2/03 children are dancing in paradise delicious secrets cherished as pastel flakes drift past in the warm breeze laughter rolls 10/3/03 Come touch the fluff of the dandelions Beautiful blowing about yonder They don't last Only just here and gone 10/6/03 Somebody in Stockton We're nobody in Oakland They haven't found the feel of smoked rubber on the freeway 10/7/03 What will suffice does When we are alone But you mask neglect of matters By surface hate of mortals' limitations 10/8/03 Verse is found to be destiny and bypassing sales I desist 10/9/03 Our tears are acid In the aftermath of dreams of cruelty Without reason Futility feeds fear in the darkness 10/13/03 Maybe creativity will stop nagging memory from tearing away at my mind and calm the ripples from recalled tragedy 10/14/03 Nothing brings out moments of cruelty faster than darkness turning a child's happiness grievous 10/16/03 Come delight in the fragrant fruit clinging to the gnarled grapevine Marvel at the dawn of a new age Behold 12/3/03 their guilt found them by the pond as tadpoles somehow sliced the air like a thousand Survivors Reaching for life 12/31/03 when gathered childhood memories tell in pictures of the tragedy nobody saw there was no shelter to be found ----------------------- 1/21/09--magpoems You'll never need stars for seeing to-night the moon shocks Lights the heaven like sun fire no soft cloud floats to interfere as anything and nothing happens elsewhere